What Happened

Well tonight, technically it was earlier this morning, started out promising.  I was very tired and actually sleepy around 12:30 a.m.  I laid down and drifted off sometime between 1:30 and 2:00 a.m.  Yay...everybody pat hands...not so fast...I woke up at 3:30 a.m. 

It is now 4:30 a.m. and I am blogging and downloading music from iTunes...I'm cool like that!  

So, what happened?  I don't have a clue.  I didn't go to sleep last night (no, wait, it was early yesterday morning) until after 5:00 a.m.  I slept until 10:30 a.m. (that's a really decent amount of sleep for me in one session).  I did not sleep any during the day; no naps.  These facts, combined with my sleepiness earlier, gave me hope that tonight would be a good one.

I'm listening to Jimmy Needham.  That would be the music I was downloading when I was being cool with my multitasking.  I love his voice and his songs have great messages to them.  If you haven't, you should check him out.

I read this quote by Oscar Wilde a day or so ago..."To live is the rarest thing in the world.  Most people exist, that is all."  Isn't that one of the truest and saddest statements you have ever heard?  I know it is for me.  I feel like that's what I'm doing at this moment in my life...just existing.  I don't seem to have the energy to live, but I want to...believe me...I desperately want to live.

It's my desire to live everyday to the fullest extent so that I have no regrets if there is no tomorrow.  With God all things are possible.  I truly believe that and I know that this time in my life is just a season...this too shall pass!