(This was originally written about a year and a half ago.)
I'm so tired. I think that is the worst part of insomnia for me. I have absolutely no energy. Functioning in everyday life is almost impossible. Plans get cancelled, projects are left undone, commitments aren't met, and the guilt is enormous. I used to be able to function with little sleep. But, the older I get the harder it is for me to go without sleep and it seems the older I get, the less sleep I get.
I feel like a prisoner in my own body. Medications have ceased to work. This is a battle I have fought since I was 15 years old. It's not new to me.
Insomnia is a very lonely place. I've never been afraid of the dark, but I have truly began to dislike it.
